whoa its been forever since I've posted. Well lets see I've moved out of my jail cell (old dorm) and I"m living in an apartment with my two friends :D it's pretty awesome. My rooms awesome, I've got my Rob posters all over. It sucks they dont have Kstew posters or those would be all over my walls too. I should make some at Kinkos :D Anyways I changed my major over the summer so I'm now an Art Major and I love it :D yay! Im going to get my bangs cut soon like how Kristen had hers at the VMAs so hopefully i'll find a place near by to do it for a good price and yeah heres a pic



Nothing else is going on really but I'll try to post more

I wish I had someone to talk about Twilight with like I use to...all my friends now dont care anymore and I have to tone down my talk about it :( It was fun last year when I could im people and be like omg and they would care but now..its like who do I have to talk to that will not sound like they dont give a fuck and make me feel like I'm some stupid fangirl :( it sucks to the extreme...will someone be my Twilight friend? :(

Wow its been a while since I've written in here. Oh well I am going to start using my journal to help motivate myself. Last weekend I had a get together at my friends place and it was really fun. Then I saw the pictures from that night. I look horrible. And I'm not even kidding. When I first started college I was 115, which is usually what my weight has been throughout high school. For my height (I'm 5'1) that is a very good weight to be. Right now (im almost done with my 2nd yr of college) I weight almost 140. That is way overweight for my height. Its gotten so bad that I do not even like going shopping anymore. That is very strange for me since I am a fashion major and Ive always loved going shopping and have new clothes. I'm ashamed to buy any clothes because of the size I am now. I really need to desperate loose weight or I will really be in some serious problems. I know I only have 3 weeks left of school before I move out and head back home and then to NJ for the summer. But these last few weeks I'm going to push myself to go workout every day. I need to in order to get back to how I use to be, when I enjoyed my body and didn't hate it.




This is the picture that I look at and get tears in my eyes. I look like I am 3 months pregnant. It's really embarrassing to look at, and to have my friends see it makes it even more embarrassing. I want to be healthy and I want to like what I look like. I want to be able to wear my clothes from the beginning of the semester. I'm going to be posting my daily activies in here to help keep me motivated. And if you read this ( I'm sorry u had to hear me rant) but I'm not sure if anyone reads my blogs but if anyone does, please leave me motivation. I will really need it.

So I haven't posted in a while but I felt like I kinda needed to. This past week was the first week of 2nd semester. I think I am going to like my classes, no problems just yet. We get a new roommate and shes really nice and I like her a lot. Plus she loves to cook so that's a plus. Alright so lately, I don't know why but Ive been crushing on a few guys. The both are really sweet and everything but neither of them live near me, one isnt even in the country. What sucks is today I was talking to one of them and he got really upset because I told him that I couldn't like him anymore then I already did. It just hurt too much to know that Id never get to be with him. He was on his webcam so I saw his reaction. I swear i made him cry which really made me feel like a bitch. I mean I dont know what else to do, I dont wanna lead myself into falling in love and not being able to do anything about it. And with the other guy, I've kinda secretly liked him for a while though its now coming to surface. He's one of my best friends best friend and hes super sweet. But it really bothers my bff that I flirt with him. Ive been doing that a lot lately, I dont know why but I think I really needa stop.

But with that off my chest I wanna talk about why I am nervous. For the past couple years I have been getting headachs every single day and the random migrain every few weeks. I started going to the school doctor and he put me on some meds for about  3 months. They didnt seem to be working so he recommended me to go to a headache center. My appointment is tomorrow and I'm really nervous about it. I'm not exactly sure what they are going to do but I already hate doctors in the first place. Another thing thats got me freaked out is stupid me looked up the symptoms of a brain tumor...and i had a lot of them. So I'm just worried. I know its kinda rare for me to have a tumor, but you never know. Im trying not to get too worked up over it but its kinda hard. I guess I will just find out tomorrow. Wish me luck...and if you read this could you comment so i know who reads these things.... I never really know :)

Other then that I hope everyone has a good week

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so i was minding my own business in my room when my roommate text me saying she needed me. so i opened my door and there stood Edward Cullen. I screamed because it scared the shit out of me, because it looked so freakin real. I screamed and my heart was beating so fast. and he has a bow on his head and a card taped to his crouch

I freakin love Angela and Matt for getting it for me :)

thats all I have to say about that. They keep doing horrible things day after day. Its like they are trying to piss every single person off in this fandom. well congrats summit you've just won a can of 'holy shit every fucking fangirl is going to burn down your studio'

This was takin from the LA Times and I couldn't agree more

We have a problem, Forks. Whether or not you fell in love with Hardwicke's vision, the director's finger was on the pulse of "Twilight" fans. She relentlessly scoured Oregon for Bella's and Edward's perfect meadow, the pivotal scene for most readers. She made sure Stewart and Pattinson would steam up the screen -- on her own bed, no less. She made sure the book's many characters were all accounted for, even arguably expendable folk such as Eric.) She even went so far as to film a scene from "Midnight Sun," Meyer's as-yet-unfinished retelling of "Twilight" from Edward's perspective, which will be included as a bonus for fans on the film's forthcoming DVD. Will Summit Entertainment be able to find another director so in touch with teens and just as passionate about the source material?

What do you all think? Is Hardwicke's exit a good or bad thing for "New Moon"? Does it make a difference? Who do you want to see take over?